About My Childhood Imprinting
My mother, bless her, raised me alone, a difficult task during the pre women's lib days. She sent me to Catholic school. I received a great education but learned to distrust organized religion. We were taught only what the church wanted us to learn, independent thinking was discouraged. We were taught that God loves us but we should fear eternal damnation because we were sinners and were all going to Hell.
How and Why I Chose Another Pathway
I was unhappy with the teachings of the churches. They appear to be more concerned about control of their parishioners and their money. I didn't want to give up my faith in God but I didn't want to be under the thumb of a church. It's taken me nearly 40 years of introspection and study, to reach the point at which I am now, and I still have more growing/learning to do.
Lessons Learned
- Finding my own way to God has given me a stronger faith and a better appreciation of the gifts He has blessed me with.
- I am comfortable with who I am and I also realize that I'm a "work in progress."
- I'm not afraid of change, I'm not afraid to step outside of what is considered normal.
- Without my faith, I wouldn't be able to cope with recently losing my husband, and the job of re-inventing myself, finding my new normal.
- My faith is carrying me through the worst days of my life and allows me to be grateful for the 25 wonderful years I had with my husband. I know he is all right and I will be with him one day.
About My Current Path
I'm still learning, my mind is always open always searching. I am comfortable with my beliefs and my faith. I am not far from the end time of my life and I do not fear death. I know there is more beyond this physical life, I know God exists, He forgives and loves us. That's all I need.
