Type of Dream I Had
My Mother died a year and a half ago, and recently I dreamed my Mother and younger sister [who was as a child again] were in one room, and I was in another. When I opened the door on them, my Mother had my sister picked up in her arms. They were hugging, and my Mother told her how much she had missed her. When she turned and saw me, she said, very flatly "Yes, I love you, too." to which I replied "No, you don't." and I run out from the room, with my sister coming after me, trying to comfort me, as I am crying. But my Mother just stands watching.
What My Dream Meant to Me
Sadly, I never really had a close relationship with my Mother, as she was always far more involved with my sister than with me. I guess this is reflected in the dream, particularly with them being in "a different room" to me, with the door closed. I always felt they were unreachable to me.
The dream dialogue is representative of how I always felt when growing up. Since my Mother's death, my sister and I have drawn much closer, and that is obvious, I feel in the dream, when she comes after me to comfort me. When my Mother was alive, she didn't need anyone else, and that's how my Mother liked it, so we weren't encouraged to be close to each other. Thankfully, we can now build on the sort of relationship we always should have had.
Lessons Learned
- Now I feel that, although it is late in coming, all is not lost, and my sister and I have the chance of building on the sort of relationship I always wanted as a child, but was never able to have, as my Mum needed to have my sister exclusively to herself.
- My relationship did improve with my Mother towards the end of her life, I'm glad to say.
