Response from Rose: Dear Galan, you quite clearly describe a pattern in your life. The good news is that awareness is more than half the battle to creating more of what you want, and less of what you don't.
There is a Peruvian word, hucha, which is used to describe heavy energy, something Westerners call negative energy. I prefer the term hucha since it does not carry the stigma of judgment. We all want less hucha and more sami, or light energy, in our lives.
In the energy world like attracts like. If your energy body has imprints of old trauma or inherited familial patterns, it will attract more of the same energy or hucha. And how that energy manifests as a rhythm, causing us to get stuck in one dance pattern rather than being able to move freely through many.
The universe has our best interests at heart, constantly offering us opportunities to change; unfortunately to us the opportunities often feel like challenges and unwanted drama, making it difficult for us to embrace change with joy, or to know what to change.
To understand how this pattern operates I'll use the example of an adult who was raised in an abusive environment.
It is well documented that victims of childhood abuse will unconsciously gravitate to relationships that contain the same pattern. From an energetic perspective they are repeating aspects of the situation over and over in an attempt to confront and heal it--repeating the steps they know so well over and over again.
For example, a child who grew up with a parent (or parents) that constantly told them that they were bad, useless, unwanted or worthless will not only have self-esteem issues, he/she will often choose a partner that perpetuates that pattern. And the pattern is pervasive, spilling over into our choice of friends, work relationships and casual encounters.
What is needed to shift the pattern is to track the originating event/energy, release it, and re-integrate energetically. It is a process that should be approached with as much support as possible since you not only need to shift the energy of the steps, you also need to learn new ones. Training in Reiki gives you the benefit of access to self-healing support 24/7, but I would also suggest sessions with energy professionals and possibly talk therapy for integration.
Patterns are not usually changed overnight as there are layers to them and steps in the healing process. With each layer removed, and each step along the path, greater ease and freedom will be felt, and different energy will enter into your life.
As you change so will the people around you. At first they may attempt to force you to keep to the same old dance. Stand in your power, and feel the energy of your new steps. Eventually the other dancer must make a choice--to change their dance to match yours, opting to change how they interact with you, or to change dance partners. Be assured that new, and healthier, relationships will take their place.
Best wishes for a life filled with joy and freedom as you dance with the energy!
Rose De Dan,
Animal Reiki Shaman
Disclaimer: Rose De Dan shares insights derived from spirit and through animal communication. Any advice she offers is not meant as a substitute for veterinary care.