Guide: I know you believe in past lives because you once shared a lifetime with your guide "Grey Eagle." I was wondering if you could help solve a mystery for me. I had been able to have waking communications with my grandmother for a few years following her transition from the physical. But as the years passed I no longer felt a connection beyond occasional appearances in my dreams. I felt this was partially because she had moved on to another place, perhaps even reincarnated into another body. If a spirit or soul has indeed reincarnated wouldn't they still be able to communicate astrally using their previous personality?
Rosemary: I'm not as sure of reincarnation as you seem to think I am.
Guide: Okay.
Rosemary: My life with Grey Eagle was prior to my birth here but that doesn't mean that we were together here on this Earth together in a previous life. And I also think that we have one life and just many journeys, and this Earth plane is one of those journeys. I think that we can choose to come back here onto this Earth and do this all over again if we want to. And I think there are those that do. But I also don't want to disregard the fact that we can choose to go out into the universe, as the universe is vast. Let's not assume that the Earth is the only place that we can travel to and have experiences from. There are many many places. So a person can come back to this Earth if he so chooses in another form, in another being but it isn't our only option.
Here is what I feel about your grandmother however. I feel with your grandmother that when she first passed in the first few years that she passed you needed her, you needed to connect with her and she also needed to connect with you to let you know that she was there, that she was around. Since that time, you had gotten on with your life doing many things, she has also gotten on with her life. I feel however that she is just as close to you as she ever was but I think you doubt yourself and your ability to connect with her and perhaps you even doubt that she wants to be with you. I think she is with you, I think she is your guiding light, your own angel. I think that whenever you need her she is there for you. You just aren't quite listening in the right way. You become so involved for other people that you are forgetting your own needs. And when you do need... there is a tendency for you to push too hard, to panic a little too much to be able to trust yourself.
Guide: Do you think this is a common trait among those of us who do readings for other people. It seems harder for us to get information for ourselves.
Rosemary: Yes...
Guide: Do you enjoy your life? Do you feel you have to shield yourself from the many people who make demands of you or have great expectations of you? How do you deal with that? How do you cope?
Rosemary: The downside of doing what I do is the tremendous loneliness of the life that I have because I'm having to shoulder such enormous responsibilities all the time dealing with so much sadness, so much sickness, so much pain. The upside is that while people are watching me talk to a young girl who was raped and murdered and they are listening to the pain and the hurt of that , they don't see what I can see. Because I don't see the girl in pain and I don't see her in stress of what has happened to her any more. What I see is a girl who is radiant and joyful because she is living on in such a wonderful place and having had the wonder of the experience that the Earth can give us which is after all our choice. And so it is easy for me because I can cry with people who come to me, I can cry for their pain, feel their pain, but I'm also the one who sees so much joy. So, my life is perfect.
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